I have loved her…more than myself. I don’t think she sees it especially since I cheated and lied to continue hiding the fact that I was cheating.
Cheating: Inspite of being a highly sexual person, I never imagined I would cheat on my love, it happened and unfortunately I enjoyed the attention. I felt wanted and sexy and desired, never realised I wanted that so much. Is it narcissistic to want to feel these ways.